Master And Slave

A very long time ago I witnessed a moment with our previous pet and Master that scared me as well as leaving me awkwardly confused.  I had distanced myself from the days events; however, I was at home and present towards the end of their “session” and although I do not regret being there I have to say watching Master torment and torture her; hearing her uncontrolled and desperate screams terrified me. Not only was I left with a gross uncomfortableness I was at a loss as to understand why anyone would ever wish to experience such torture.  

Through a scientific and psychological view I can medically understand how the sensations she felt could bring arousal, pain and pleasure sharing a threshold but the why behind it was and still is what dumbfounds me.  Perhaps it is because I have experienced a fair share of genuine fear (as in life endangering fear) that I have no desire to venture down such a path willingly or maybe it is because I have yet to learn how to suspend fantasy from reality.  Truth is, if Master were to place me in a similar situation as he had our previous pet although the physical pain would be beyond challenging to face, psychologically it probably would not.  

I trust Master. I believe Master will never intentionally harm me. I know that he would not take my life nor put me in a situation that would bring even the tiniest of risk to my life therefore the psychological fear would not exist and from all I have seen the mind game appears to be a fundamental part of such an exchange. 

When I look at this image, when I see her facial expression, she seems genuine. Her tears, her body language it all seems to come from a place of fear and that is exactly what I saw with our previous pet. 

In a way I am envious yet at the same time I can not help but wonder how healthy it can be for a person to be put through such torment and to crave it. To achingly crave for such release.

~cockdoll